This is Hard, a True Struggle

I’m proud of myself in some areas and less proud in others. The book I mentioned last week (Not A Fan.) is getting more and more difficult to complete. It’s really some deep stuff. Today it asked me, “What am I enslaved to?” OK, I can maybe admit that. It then took it a step forward and told you to make an altar to it and kneel in front of it to worship. WHAT???? WHO DOES THAT??

I suppose we do equivalent things every day when we have time for everything/one else but God. I’m a HUGE victim of this. I had all sorts of meetings and events to go to this week and I’ve been stressing out like crazy, but yet I haven’t really laid my burdens on God.

I worry so much about the future and forget that every moment forthcoming is not guaranteed. I have to follow Jesus the best I can knowing that God is a understanding God.

I also have to start reading my Bible to really understand Jesus and develop a relationship with Him. I can read a fiction novel (especially romance) in NO TIME, but I don’t know the last time I actually sat down and read my Bible.

Sometimes I feel like I’m blocking myself from changing. Maybe it’s fear. No use sitting around and analyzing my problems when I can simply just take action. Hopefully the next time I write I will have made some improvements.

Love,

BK

Moving Forward

This last week has turned out to be pretty good. I have learned a lot about myself, and from some of the feedback from my posts I see that I am helping others. I have a new theme to share with you guys. It is “Moving Forward.” Last week, I purchased Jessica Reedy’s CD entitled “From the Heart.” Track number 14 on the CD is called Moving Forward. This song really fit with the direction of my spiritual, personal, and professional life.

Here are some lyrics to share:

I’m Not Going Back

I’m Moving Ahead

I’m Here to Declare to You

My Past is Over in You

Things are Made New

Surrender My Life to Christ

I’m Moving, Moving Forward

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You Make All Things New, You Make All Things New

I will Follow You, Forward

These words really define where I want my mindset to be. I am using this song to ground me and help me focus on what’s really important. God understands that I don’t/didn’t always make the best decisions, but He made my life new and gave me another chance to move forward and do better the next time.

Right now, I am in the midst of a corporate Bible Study with my church called “Not A Fan,” which is basically focused on following Jesus and not just being His fan. With Jessica Reedy’s song and this Bible Study, I hope I can keep Moving Forward and be the best person, daughter, family member, friend, and coworker I can be.

Check out Jessica’s song below, as well as the Not a Fan website and video: 

Love,

BK